Cristina Masters is senior lecturer in international politics at theUniversity of Manchester.
shine choi is senior lecturer at the school of people, environment and planning at Massey University.
Marysia Zalewski is professor of international relations atCardiff University. Her research has been supported by the British Academy, The Royal Society of Edinburgh, The Carnegie Trust for the Universities of Scotland and The British Council.
Swati Parashar is professor in Peace and Development at the University of Gothenburg.

Acknowledgements
Preface
in loveless politics.
Chapter 1.Warning Signs Your Colonizer is Gaslighting You, Meghana V. Nayak
Chapter 2. On the (In)Ability to Converse, Claudia A. Fernández Calleros
Chapter 3.Complaint, shine choi
Chapter 4. It came to my attention., Saara Särmä
and entrapments of non- (or language entrapments)
Chapter 5. I regrettably do not think I can contribute., Katsuhiko Suganuma
Chapter 6. Babels Schuld, Catherine Goetze
Chapter 7. Wandering and Wondering in Search of the Unimaginable, Daniel Zengotita
Chapter 8. A (Voluntary) Prisoner of Research: Mystery, Destiny and Narrative, Sungju-Park-Kang
...just write (, think later)
Chapter 9. On the ugly intimacies of war, Cristina Maria Da Rosa Bagaço (Masters)
Chapter 10. (Ho)Me, or the Unbearable: Mapping the Personal International, Maria-Adriana Deiana
Chapter 11. epiVOGUE: How Writing a Novel about Transnational Loneliness Made Me Rethink My Strategy of Survival, Sergei Akopov
Chapter 12. Questions, answers and non-answers: Reflections on writing in the red notebook, Itziar Mujika Chao
. love, live!
Chapter 13. Survivance and Mothers, Kumari Abeydeera
Chapter 14. Mother-Scholar failures: ella habla por la entrepierna, Sara C. Motta
Chapter 15. The Morning After an Autistic Suicide Scare: On the Banality of Surviving (in/with/for) Writing, Julio César Diaz Calderón
Afterwor(l)ds
Yakolev Rachel DesiréSungju Martha Julio Sungju Swati MarysiaSergei